I miss laughing. I've had a pain in my diaphragm or ribs, I don't know which, for weeks that gives me trouble every time I laugh, yawn, cough, cry, or vomit. This pain wasn't the only reason I haven't written in so long, but I think it was a contributor. To catch you up on what has happened since my last post: I went home from the hospital feeling weak for some number of days, then started having this pain that sent me back to the ED (no one in the know calls it the ER anymore, it's the "Emergency Department"). It seemed for a while that the pain was related to my gallbladder or lung, and I stayed in the hospital for maybe another week waiting to find out what was wrong with me. Someone had done the math and figured out that I had already spent just about 100 days in the hospital since my diagnosis. I'd like to think it was exactly on day 100 that I couldn't take it anymore. On day 100 or thereabouts I woke up watching the clock and telling all