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Preliminary results

It's........ inconclusive.
Here's what they saw in my bone marrow. Not a lot. As in, they said it looked "pretty empty". Which is what we were expecting after the chemo. But it wasn't completely empty, there were some cells in there. In the peripheral blood, there were no leukemia cells. In the bone marrow, there were no leukemia cells, maybe. What they saw were reactive cells. Which I guess are cells that are being recruited to help fight infection. These cells were too immature to tell what they would be when they grew up. They could grow up to be leukemia cells, or they could grow up to be Sarah cells. The leukemia kids would have some kind of protein marker on them, so to figure it out the sample will be further tested.

And the result of that test will come back tomorrow afternoon.

Sorry to keep you in suspense.

In other news, I had a lucid dream this morning. I've had a few lucid dreams recently, and I'm always disappointed by what I choose to do when I figure out I'm dreaming. In this dream, I was in a hospital. But this time I was like a CNA type figure. I was taking direction from a nurse who looked just like that Russian woman from Orange is the New Black. She was showing me how to care for this patient who had no face. Just a mass of flesh where a face would be, and bloody, bruised sores where the eyes would have been. She handed me a basin and told me to go outside and collect snow, I guess to use as an ice pack. I realized I was dreaming when I came back inside. I thought that was pretty cool, now I can do whatever I want. So guess what I decide to do? I throw up into the basin. And then I just stood there thinking hospitals are pretty boring. And then I woke up.

What a waste.

What would or what do you do when you figure out you're dreaming?


Comments

  1. flying while lucid is always a challenge. For me the issue comes when I'm trying to fly too high and my brain can't make up what's going on with the horizon quickly enough and I wind up with redraw problems. My solutions are either to fly low and slow or to lift myself up high into the air but very slowly. If I can manage to get up high enough Then my memories of skydiving take over and it's all wind and clouds.

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  2. I don't know that I know how to lucid dream. But sometimes in my dreams I do pull-ups and it's like it's not even hard. I just keep doing pull-ups over and over and I don't get tired. I think that's a good thing to do in your dreams.

    I often have anxiety dreams where I am packing (because I'm moving or just on vacation) and I keep realizing that I have more to pack. If I could lucid dream, then I would stop packing and go on the damn vacation.



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  3. Recently I've been dreaming that I am on some spy mission with various situations. I always seem to wake up when I'm running out of time....

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